12.14.15
Dearest Penelope,
You're 4 years old! I have a major case of Mama guilt. Colin was up throwing up every 30 minutes the night before your birthday. That meant I was up all night taking care of him and didn't have much energy to celebrate your birthday with you. I did my best though and you seemed to enjoy your day. In the morning you opened your presents then we headed for kindergarten and preschool drop off.
You are the first of our little family of 5 to celebrate a birthday at school! We brought Danimal smoothies to celebrate with the class after lunch. Everyone sang happy birthday and enjoyed their treat. You were a happy preschooler.
That night you went out to dinner with Daddy, Michela, Grammy, and Papa. Here's where part 2 of mama guilt comes. I didn't go out to dinner since Colin was still super sick so I didn't get to sing happy birthday with everyone and watch you blow out your candles. :( Grammy took a video so I could see. I'm glad I was able to watch the smile on your face as everyone sang - just wish I was there singing too.
After dinner, Grammy, Papa, Michela, and I took you to your Christmas performance with your preschool. You were an angel in the show and I couldn't have been happier seeing you sing along with your friends. When you first told me about your show you told me that you were going to be a cloud. After seeing the performance I see why you thought you were going to be a cloud. :) You stood in the clouds!

I'm sorry I didn't get to give you the day I wanted to give you for your 4th birthday. But I am glad that you got to enjoy the things you did.
Friday, Colin was feeling better so I figured everything was going to go smoothly for your party on Saturday. I cleaned the house, prepared the appetizers, decorated the house in stripes, turned our Christmas tree into a birthday tree with streamers and balloons, and baked a zebra cake for your stripe party. Unfortunately, we were the only people who got to see it. Friday night while your cake was baking, I started getting sick. I was in denial but ended up being up all night with the same stomach bug that plagued Colin. :( Your stripe party had to be cancelled. Part 3 of mama guilt.
Daddy claims that the party wasn't cancelled, just modified. And, in a way, he's right. Daddy took you and Michela out to lunch on Saturday then enjoyed The Good Dinosaur movie complete with popcorn. After the movie you three headed over to Grammy and Papa's house to celebrate with cousins. Again, everyone sang happy birthday and I wasn't able to participate. While I'm feeling better now, I still feel terrible about it.
We made a pumpkin pie for your birthday (your actual birthday, not your party). We didn't get a change to eat it on your birthday since you went out to dinner and I stayed back with your brother. Sunday, I finally got my chance to sing happy birthday.
I love you Penelope Marie. Your birthday and surrounding days may not have been what we wanted but I will always love you and I will always remember the day you flew into this world, your birthday.
Happy number four Penny Pie. What a wonderful 4 years it has been.
Love you big girl!
With all my love,
Mommy
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12.20.15
Dear Quillinan Trio,
Why oh why do you insist on sharing illnesses? Why? It must be Daddy's fault since he always says, "sharing is caring!" I'm joking of course. Sharing is a wonderful thing. You can make a lot of friends by simply sharing a smile with someone. But you are more than welcome to be selfish when it comes to viruses. Keep it to yourself and spare the rest of us please! Daddy generally avoids it but that's because he gets to sleep! If someone is sick in the house, I am the one who gets up in the middle of the night to help. Yes, I love my sleep but I love you more and will continue to get up if and when you need me - no matter the time.
Please stay well. Let's not make it another long winter of illnesses. Please!
Love you,
Mommy